Losing Alaska

An Ode To Life

mental illness

  • Rebel

    I am a Rebel, a Rebel with a cause, authority puts no cuffs on me.I am a Rebel, a Rebel with a vendetta, society has no bars on me. I am a Rebel, a Rebel defiant through and through. I am a fucking Rebel, a degenerate with a plan.I am a mother fucking Rebel, you… Read more

  • Monster

    I see him,The Monster,He is hiding in my dreams,Weaving intricate webs of my own self-hate,In my loathing I awaken for the Monster he is near,His breath full of captured souls beating upon my prepubescent consciousness,I am frightened,Too frightened to move,I pray to a God who is not listening to make it stop,Gods reply?Absent,My mind leaves… Read more

  • Insanity

    Drip, drip, drop,Drip, drip, drop,Rain dripping down sploshing on the damp wet ground,Rain dripping down thudding the top of my roof as I listen,Rain dripping down tripping and trapping against the windows by which I sit,Rain dripping down urgling and gurgling in my head I can hear it,Drip, drip, drop,Drip, drip, drop,Rain pouring down slip… Read more

  • False Promise

    False PromiseI am despair,I consume all and release nothing from my grasp of steel,I have slayed the greatest of men and fell the mightiest of beasts,I am despair relentless and overbearing,A thief of always,The sun does not shine here and hope is not birthed,I am despair,I promise and destroy,I end lives with the false promise… Read more

  • Hope

    What is hope?A dying ember that ebbs and flows on the flame of life.What is hope?The end of me?The last touch of fingertips before a plummet to an inevitable death.What is hope?The death of me.The birth of my all-encompassing despair.What is hope?But a curse.A binder to a life I do not wish for.A chain to… Read more

  • Rehab

    Rehab,The place where wedding rings disappear and marriages are put on hold,Rehab,A place where fourteen days of knowing someone equals a lifetime,Rehab,Where men and women come back to pick up their much to young soul mates,Rehab,Brains still maturing on mommy and daddies’ dime,Rehab,Reaper of rings. Read more

  • Handle-less

    My will has gone out,I am trapped in a hallway with no end or beginning,The only light is from holes,Tiny little holes on handless doors,Impenetrable doors of steel and ice and brick,Doors I will never breach,Doors of which I can peek through endless hope filled holes,Holes containing that which is sacred,Love attachment and joy,Doors I… Read more