Losing Alaska

An Ode To Life

teen

  • Beast

    I can feel it slipping, my sobriety  Doomed to be forever consumed by this metallic beast  Engulfing my consciousness more every day  Losing myself would say  But lost I already am  In the belly of the beast  Yet still all i can think of is where can I find my next subliminal feast  I am a body  a shell  A corpse of… Read more

  • Sir

    Goodnight good Sir  And may the ever moon of the planet of never people be forever maintained as gone  Read more

  • Roses

    Roses  Roses lined with golden powder  So beautiful  So pure  So deceiving  The spell is upon me  Can I make it to my ever-retreating door of freedom or will these colors once again keep me?   On my pony I fly by my life and laugh  The colors are so sharp I am really seeing it all  I love my invisible pony  I can do… Read more

  • Alienate

    It seems like every day it’s getting clearer to me   I do it in so many ways   I never failed to continue to alienate myself this way   always trying to think of something to say   words that never come out   so I just sit back and let you take it away   once again always alienating myself this way  … Read more

  • Acidic

    I’m running my heart to pieces trying to break free of you   but I’m disappearing deep down inside   with every tear I forced deep down inside   breakdown   I’m having on the floor with my head in my hands   I’m screaming through my veins the hate I can feel it brewing   pain anger and sadness fusing together filling me up from… Read more

  • I am

    I am 3 and I am alone. When I laugh no one is there to listen. When I laughed there is no one there to hear it. When I laugh, I don’t laugh outside anymore. I’m alone in this bath with my laughs and she isn’t coming back anymore. I am alone in this bath… Read more

  • Therapy Assignment One

    Below is an assignment I did in therapy to work on shame associated with sexual abuse when I was a child. Shame Mental health people say the only way to heal shame is to say it. I wonder if that is true. I certainly have my reservations about it, but what do I have to… Read more

  • Swipe Right

    In the steel night of gender sterile poetry the truest of men swipe right. Read more

  • Sugar

    I just wanna get fucked up beyond belief,Be carried away from all my pain and grief,I do any drug offered to me,I wanna snort one-thousand lines,But if all I could do was freebase or shoot it I’d do that to,All I really want to do is get high,I need that candy in my blood,I have… Read more

  • Sin

    The water blows across the sea rippling and distorting my reflection of me,The summer sun sets and the winter moon rises,Hiding away sin in its millions of disguises,During all of this I just happen to see a faraway person watching over me,The far away watcher of me is broken inside,The gaping hole in her chest… Read more