Losing Alaska

An Ode To Life

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  • Roses

    Roses  Roses lined with golden powder  So beautiful  So pure  So deceiving  The spell is upon me  Can I make it to my ever-retreating door of freedom or will these colors once again keep me?   On my pony I fly by my life and laugh  The colors are so sharp I am really seeing it all  I love my invisible pony  I can do… Read more

  • Alienate

    It seems like every day it’s getting clearer to me   I do it in so many ways   I never failed to continue to alienate myself this way   always trying to think of something to say   words that never come out   so I just sit back and let you take it away   once again always alienating myself this way  … Read more

  • Acidic

    I’m running my heart to pieces trying to break free of you   but I’m disappearing deep down inside   with every tear I forced deep down inside   breakdown   I’m having on the floor with my head in my hands   I’m screaming through my veins the hate I can feel it brewing   pain anger and sadness fusing together filling me up from… Read more

  • Roulette

                What is the hardest decision you have ever been asked to make?  Take thirty seconds to think.  Did you find it?  I did.  I don’t even have to be given time.  It is always there, overshadowing everything in both my sub and conscious mind.  A memory almost as horrible as it is hopeless.  A… Read more

  • Therapy

    “Why are you afraid of getting better?” the women with the dark eyes and darker hair asks 5000 miles away but sitting in the woman’s living room. “Who said I was scared” “My third eye is telling me.” “You and your third I can….” the woman goes silent. Picking the conversation back up she starts… Read more

  • Therapy Assignment One

    Below is an assignment I did in therapy to work on shame associated with sexual abuse when I was a child. Shame Mental health people say the only way to heal shame is to say it. I wonder if that is true. I certainly have my reservations about it, but what do I have to… Read more

  • This Assignment is about what happened to my inner four year old. Enjoy! Embers “Where are we going?” “You will see Little One.” “Why are we going there?” “Well Little One it is a place just for you.” The four-year-old girl looked down in deep concentration as if pondering the complexities of reality. “Will you… Read more

  • Sugar

    I just wanna get fucked up beyond belief,Be carried away from all my pain and grief,I do any drug offered to me,I wanna snort one-thousand lines,But if all I could do was freebase or shoot it I’d do that to,All I really want to do is get high,I need that candy in my blood,I have… Read more