Losing Alaska

An Ode To Life

DID

  • Beast

    I can feel it slipping, my sobriety  Doomed to be forever consumed by this metallic beast  Engulfing my consciousness more every day  Losing myself would say  But lost I already am  In the belly of the beast  Yet still all i can think of is where can I find my next subliminal feast  I am a body  a shell  A corpse of… Read more

  • Alienate

    It seems like every day it’s getting clearer to me   I do it in so many ways   I never failed to continue to alienate myself this way   always trying to think of something to say   words that never come out   so I just sit back and let you take it away   once again always alienating myself this way  … Read more

  • Crimson

    The crimson tide slowly washes over me,  The cascading ebony of the color red clipping my beautiful wings,  The chain of society perpetually tightening around my body every time I try to lift off,  This chilling cement rain puddling and forming upon my feet,  I can feel it,  Every hardening drop keeping me who I am yesterday, … Read more

  • Roulette

                What is the hardest decision you have ever been asked to make?  Take thirty seconds to think.  Did you find it?  I did.  I don’t even have to be given time.  It is always there, overshadowing everything in both my sub and conscious mind.  A memory almost as horrible as it is hopeless.  A… Read more

  • I am

    I am 3 and I am alone. When I laugh no one is there to listen. When I laughed there is no one there to hear it. When I laugh, I don’t laugh outside anymore. I’m alone in this bath with my laughs and she isn’t coming back anymore. I am alone in this bath… Read more

  • I want out (part one)

    I wish I could say I knew everything. But the truth is I know nothing. I don’t know why the sun rises. I don’t know why the sea is green. I don’t know why the earth turns, or why water freezes. I don’t know anything, but I do know black. A black that stretches as… Read more

  • Nobody

    I am tired. I am so tired most days I’m not even here. I’m so tired of seeing things most others do not see. Half of what I see may be real, while the other half is just paranoia. I’m so tired of not being an identity. Of not growing myself into a somebody, so… Read more

  • Strings

    Strings on my fingers,Strings on my toes,Strings tied in places I don’t even know. Strings in my mind hitched to different people,Puppeteer with his strings that he pulled though his vessel,For I am not free,Nor do I see,He is more than just a part of me. Strings on my fingers,Strings on my toes,Strings tied in… Read more

  • Dissociative Identity Disorder Assignment Three

    This Assignment is about the inner turmoil of two different parts of me, and about the “elimination” of one of those parts. One In Two Two in One went out for play headed down towards the river not so far away. One of Two she did not talk, while Two of One for her footing… Read more

  • Dissociative Identity Disorder Assignment Two

    This assignment was to find a place where all of the different parts of me could come together, sadly the protector is against the collaboration. Dock We can all meet at my beautiful lake on a dock, hidden in between trees on all sides. A large snow-covered mountain rising to the sky above the taiga.… Read more