I am 3 and I am alone. When I laugh no one is there to listen. When I laughed there is no one there to hear it. When I laugh, I don’t laugh outside anymore. I’m alone in this bath with my laughs and she isn’t coming back anymore. I am alone in this bath with silence for laughs and she is not coming back. The water is cooling. The water is cold and I am alone. I am alone, I am alone.

I am 5 and I am blind. I see nothing only dark, who was I, who am I? I am alone. I am alone. I am alone.

I am 7 and I am alone in the bath with myself and myselves. We have fun alone together in here. I keep the water warm. I am big enough I can keep the water warm.

I am 9 and I do not like this time, nine. The walls are all black and where I sleep is cold and exposed. I do not like it when I go to bed. I am afraid when I go to sleep. I am 9, and I hide inside with myselves most of the time. I am 9, and mostly I survive out of other people’s time. I am 9, and I do not like this time.

I am 10
I am 11

I am 12 and I am aware. I am dirty and I smell. My clothes haven’t been washed and they are crusty. I am 12 and I don’t bathe. I haven’t touched soap in weeks. I am 12 and my breath and teeth stink. I am 12 and I am a sheep of black. I always have been, and I always will be. I am 12, and I don’t need any love, I don’t even need mine.